When I was 33 weeks pregnant with Mills, I was counting down the days until his due date. But John Haven’s pregnancy is different. If I’m being really honest, half of the time I just want time to freeze. I want to live all my days carrying John Haven safely with me. I want every uncomfortable sleep. Every coffee withdrawal. Every sciatic nerve pain. Every contraction. Because he is so alive inside of me. Part of me just wants time to stand still.
But then there’s that promise of healing. The promise that the Lord has all authority to heal John Haven’s body on earth or to heal him in heaven. And so the other half of the time, I’m ready for his due date. I’m ready to see how the Lord is going to heal John Haven. And maybe it’s all too personal, but as I lay here praising the Lord that he’s allowed me to carry John Haven for 33 weeks! I’m full of all kinds of thankfulness that he’s authoring all of these days. I’m so thankful he’s in control. And all he’s asking of me is to rest. To be still. To let him move the mountains.
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Our prayers are getting bolder. Our faith is getting stronger. We’re praying for the Lord’s will. We know healing is coming.
“If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” Matthew 21:22 “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” Revelation 21:4 “My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” Psalm 139:15-16 30 weeks with our sweet baby boy!
Next week is full of appointments. We will be meeting with the high risk OB on Monday, the neonatologist on Wednesday, and my normal OB on Friday. As we anticipate these appointments, here is what we are praying and believing: For the Lord to rewrite John Haven’s DNA, taking away the extra 18th chromosome. We bind his Trisomy 18 diagnosis, in Jesus’ name. For the Lord to heal John Haven’s omphalocele. That all of his organs would be growing and functioning normally, INSIDE his body. For the Lord to heal John Haven’s heart. His diagnosis is AVSD, and we are believing for the walls of his heart to form so his heart can function normally. For the Lord to heal every part of his body. John Haven has many of the common defects associated with Trisomy 18, and we are believing for normal development and healing. For our hearts. May the Lord continue to give us supernatural peace. “I proclaim healing over my children. By Jesus’ stripes they were healed. The healing, life-giving, disease-destroying power of God is working in their bodies. It drives out all manner of sickness and disease. They are full of life, health, strength, and vitality. They are healed, healthy, and whole from the tops of their heads to the soles of their feet. Every organ in their bodies operates and functions the way God created it, with no disease or malfunctions. Every system in their bodies operates and functions with supernatural efficiency. My children’s nervous systems, their digestive systems, their electrical systems, their circulatory systems, and every other system functions with 100 percent efficiency… My children are healed, healthy, and whole in Jesus’ name.”
John Haven has been golfing with daddy and shopping with mama. He's been to the lake and a baseball game. He's been to the zoo a dozen times. He's been to the park and watched his brother ride his trike all over the neighborhood. He's watched all of Mills' favorite shows and helped his mama cook daddy's favorite meals. He's eaten at so many of our favorite restaurants and loves sweets just as much as his mama.
What a life he is living! In the safety of my womb, he's experiencing life. He's a significant part of our family. In this season, so many of our decisions revolve around John Haven. We want him to experience the world. We want to create joyful moments with him. And we are, praise the Lord! At the top of his bucket list was a family beach trip. We weren't sure about the details, but we were prayerfully hoping a mini vacation would divinely fall into place. I dreamed of having all of my boys at the beach together. For John Haven to play in the water with his brother. To see the ocean and feel the waves. To watch a sunset and taste the ocean air. I am so thankful for the days our family was able to spend together at the beach. I'll remember them forever! |